We've Come Too Far To Leave It All Behind

Current Song: "I Won't Back Down" -- Johnny Cash

I played Guitar Hero III all day and now there's no part of me that doesn't hurt, including my sadly worn away fingertips. I was trying to compensate for the fact that I've tasted Rock Band and it was torn away from me, but I was only minorly successful.

Already I'm tired of being back here because everyone is swinging their same old bullshit at me. Hey everyone, could you stop being crazy and/or melodramatic for a little while? Maybe we could relax and hang out and have a good time without any of us pissing any of the rest of us off? Historically this has not been particularly successful.

I miss Charlie.

You're Red Like Texas

Current Song: "Blue Hawaii" -- Harbor

I am exhausted. Spending a week with my parents was fun, as it consisted mainly of me hanging out in my pajamas and getting waited on hand and foot. Also we played Rock Band. Unfortunately, in my commute home (which involved a plane, a train, and a bus) everything that could be late was late, so I didn't get home until 2 in the morning. Thankfully I didn't have to walk home from the Metrodome again, as I had very heavy luggage and the sidewalks were snowy. The point of all of this is that now I am exhausted and I have to spend the rest of the day at work and then at a party celebrating Charlie's abbreviated homecoming. I know, I know, I have so much to complain about, right?

But We Still Have The Radio

Current Song: "Engine Driver" -- The Decemberists

I had to skip out on my usual Wednesday night distractions so I can do laundry, because this cat is getting out of town tomorrow.

All I've eaten today are white chocolate chips and honey roasted peanuts. I think my blood is so sugary you could tap me for syrup. And there are still more cupcakes, always more cupcakes.

Back to slogging through my chores and whatnot. Hooray for boring everyday life!

Maybe We Should Throw Our Shoes At Her Again

Current Song: "Let's Get High" -- The Court & Spark

I've reached the breaking point in living with Susan. She doesn't cover her mouth when she coughs, she's been sleeping in the living room for days, and yesterday she stole some butter from me even though she has been SPECIFICALLY and REPEATEDLY warned not to take my food without asking. I don't care how crazy she is, action needs to be taken.

Still I Push My Barrow All The Day

Current Song: "The Crane Wife, Pt. 3" -- The Decemberists

I have a final tonight in a class I may have already failed due to my policy of not ever going to class. So, uh-oh.

I will be pretty upset if I fail this class, but not in a thunderous, palpable way like I would have been a couple months ago.

Speaking of changes I've made from a couple months ago, if I'd had a night with you then like I had with you a couple days ago, I would have thrown myself right under a bus. Which I guess is good news for me, but I think it means I don't care about you as much. Maybe I'm just not desperately clinging to the thought of you as the only thing that keeps me from doing something that can't be undone anymore.

It Insists Upon Itself

Current Song: "Ocean of Noise" -- Arcade Fire

I spectacularly failed last night. All I really remember is throwing up in Chad's kitchen repeatedly while a bunch of people stood around and watched, getting escorted to my apartment because my attempts to walk on my own were not terribly successful, and yelling at Robby at 3 in the morning. I had a lot of apologizing to do this morning, is what I'm saying. Also, I'm headed to two more parties tonight, but I think I'm taking it easy on the alcohol consumption. That being said, maybe tonight's the night I finally die of alcohol poisoning. I can't be trusted.

It's Like I'm 16 Again

Current Song: "We Both Go Down Together" -- The Decemberists

Note to self: stop texting while drinking. Also stop drinking straight gin. Also apologize to Chad for repeatedly throwing up in his kitchen. Ah, last night. I'm such a winner.

The First Thing That I'd Like To Do

Current Song: "Time In A Bottle" -- Jim Croce

I'm tired of my insides hurting all the damn time. I'm going to have to curl up in a ball and rock back and forth until this ibuprofen kicks in.

I wish I could wake up every day to someone blurting out "I love you!" It puts a smile on my face all afternoon.

I Think It Cost A Dime

Current Song: "Silver Sparkler" -- The Jim Yoshii Pile-Up

The giant hole that was torn in the bottom of my tongue seems to be getting mostly better, except that it's a different color than it was and I'm afraid it's getting infected. I still can't really move my tongue from side to side or stick it out very far, which makes brushing my teeth excruciating. Also eating, not that fun. At least the floor of my mouth isn't that grotesque purplish-black anymore. All the other various boo-boos are in various states of sticky oozing pain, particularly on my knees and feet, except the bruises, which have faded to a sickly yellow. Wow, I am the sexiest lady in town.

I desperately want to check out on the rest of this week and for several weeks after that. If anyone is in need of a long vacation, it's this kid.

My Poor Baby

Current Song: "The Crane Wife, Pt. 3" -- The Decemberists

Today is the last day for two of my three classes, thank God. Unfortunately, it's also a presentation day, and if you were around for the Public Speaking Class debacle, you'll realize why I want to die.

Speaking of people dying, someone in my house is throwing up a lot.

I will be so glad when this day is over.

Ooh! Ooh! Engine Driver!

Current Song: "Rhthm & Soul" -- Spoon

I really have to work on that project for my financial counseling class and I just, I just can't. I wanted to lay around on the couch staring vacantly at the television and having some alone time, but Someone is just hanging out out there, flipping channels between Iron Chef America and the movie Bewitched, and that is so antithetical to anything I believe in that I had to leave.

Also, due to spectacularly awesome choices made last night, the underside of my tongue is torn right open. Boo.

People Are Afraid To Merge On The Freeway

Current Song: "Song For Clay (Disappear Here)" -- Bloc Party

I'm out on the town meeting new people, apparently.

I Wouldn't Have Voted For Reagan

Current Song: "Land Of Confusion" -- Genesis

I don't want to know you anymore, because it's just painful to watch you throw your life away. Nothing you will ever realistically do will make me happy, even when you're trying to be nice. I wish I knew more people so I didn't need you.

More Whining, Enjoy

Current Song: "Paul Newman's Eyes" -- Dogs Die In Hot Cars

I wish I could tell how I was doing in my classes. I wish my Accounting instructor wasn't a spaz and had just emailed me to tell me if she got my drop form or not. This school is a challenge.

I ate two Chipotle burritos in one sitting last night.

This might surprise you, but I'm still not getting enough sleep.

I'd Like To Start This One Off By Saying "Live And Love"

Current Song: "John Allyn Smith Sails" -- Okkervil River

I have been exhausted for the past couple of days and I don't know why but when left to my own devices I sleep for twelve hours at a time. I can't stop eating and there is not enough water in the world to cure my dry throat. I seem to feel okay but maybe this is the calm before the storm.

Also, "You can't stop what's coming; it ain't all waiting on you" is my favorite quote right now (it's from No Country For Old Men. Go see No Country For Old Men.)

If I Ever Hurt You, It Will Be In Self-Defense

Current Song: "Down In A Hole" -- Alice In Chains

Apparently I totally spaced on the last quiz in my Family Psych class, so I hope that's not the thing that finally bursts this bubble. Where am I these days?

This Worlds Rolls On

Current Song: "Paranoia" -- Black Sabbath

Tonight was such a huge bust, and nobody talks to me anymore, and I spent a lot of time dealing with other people's drama instead of writing my Really Huge Important Paper.

You Look So Tired And Unhappy

Current Song: "No Surprises" -- Radiohead

I drank so much last night that I threw up ten times this morning and there was blood in the last half. I can't stop shaking and I haven't been able to get out of bed until now (it's 4:30). I think I'm going to lay off liquor for a while.