Sunday, February 08, 2009

Unceremonious dumping.

Saturday, February 07, 2009

Ow. My Spine.

Current Song: "Everything Is All We Need" -- A Graceless Phrase

I love getting personal emails from my music heroes. John Vanderslice just emailed me that he'll be in town in May (in response to my demand that he play Minneapolis). So I'll be doing that in May. Track down "They Won't Let Me Run" or "Pale Horse" and you'll see what I mean.

Also, my neck seized up on me again and it's ruining an otherwise perfectly pleasant day. Well, that and Karl telling me to keep it down during Rock Band, while he and his family stomp around so loudly my walls literally shake. I hate living under my landlord, because I can't even say something nasty back.

A Sinner Can Turn His Back On Sin

Current Song: "One For The Cutters" -- The Hold Steady

"I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity." -- Edgar Allan Poe

Friday, February 06, 2009

You'll Speak When You're Spoken To

Current Song: "People As Places As People" -- Modest Mouse

I finally got around to putting my books up on my bookshelf. Then I glanced over the titles and realized that I am the weirdest person around. At least I got rid of my true crime/serial killer collection.

Today was really boring. I once again failed at getting out of bed before 2:30, although I was awake at about 12:45. It's been fairly frequently lately that I just don't care enough. I got up when I realized I needed to call my county financial worker. According to her, I can expect to get Medical Assistance and $200/mth starting about Wednesday. This is good news. Not great news, but good news.

I need to buy more cereal and milk. And Hannah needs to come over soon. And I need to get on a bus and go away from here for a little while.

Thursday, February 05, 2009

With A Penitent Whaler From The Sea

Current Song: "Mariner's Revenge Song" -- The Decemberists

New hobby: answering questions on Yahoo! Answers. At least, for as long as I can before I just start vomiting from how stupid people are. This hobby does not encourage me to try to make the world a better place.


I hate everything.

I Think About You

Current Song: "A Stone" -- Okkervil River

I had to cut the dose on my Haldol because that is what's making me gain all the weight. Now I'm barely hungry, which is unfortunate as eating is a good way to kill some time when you're waiting for bedtime to roll around again.

I'm supposed to be contacting my financial worker and my grantwriting boss and neither of those things are getting done. The rent is paid (at a high price, but paid) for this month and that's such a load off that it's difficult to keep motivating myself to find longer-term solutions.

I really need Hannah to come over and clean. I've beaten some of it back but the dishes thing is way outside my territory. Also I need to do laundry as I've had to stop wearing underwear. But I can't do laundry without quarters, of which I have none.



I removed a hair clog the size of a human head from our bathtub drain today. Then I gave the tub and my hands a good scouring. It's never enough.

I sort of didn't get out of bed until 3:30 today. I didn't wake up until 2:00 by accident and then I just wasn't feeling today. It was only after I got up that I realized that every dish in the house was dirty and I ordered a pizza so I didn't have to wash anything.

Also I took out the garbage which was a big deal.

There are triangle-faced kisses everywhere.

Monday, February 02, 2009


Current Song: Theme song to "Keeping Up Appearances."

I got dressed in a daze this morning and I've just realized that I've been wearing a thong sideways all day.

I need to do laundry, I'm out of all but sexy underwear and I'm not trying to impress anyone right now.

I got to spend more of the county's money on food today and it was just fantastic.

I took a nap and woke up with a sore throat again. Do Not Want.

There's A Great Black Wave In The Middle Of The Sea

Current Song: "Wash The Day" -- TV On The Radio

Far be it from me to say even one nice thing about my hometown, but at least we had a community college that offered a metal-sculpting class. Is it so fucking hard to get someone to teach me how to weld without enrolling in a four-year program? I just want to sculpt, assholes!

I only watched the Superbowl through the halftime show, and then I wandered off. Which is too bad because apparently it got exciting after that. Whatever, dude.

I have an appointment with my shrink tomorrow and that means I have to both shower and leave the house. And find clean clothes to wear. None of this sounds exciting. Dennis is giving me a ride but still, seems like an ordeal.

That reminds me, I'm going to send you a PM with some things to mull over right now, while I'm thinking about it. This is why I want to move my blog to a new place where people I know don't read it.